jaundiced skin; scarlet nails; deceased spirit.

2005-02-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

BYE BLOGGER !!

2005-02-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

its official.

KYER IS STRESSED

like what the fuck.

i have never been stressed before,

not even by the big O.

okay fine. maybe just semi-stressed ?

but now im down with a full blown stress syndrome BY WORK !?

mmm. thats new.

and things arent gonna get any better

when the midnight madness starts.

work till 12am for the next two days

no break till cny eve.

omg.

i see my hair falling all over already.

give me a fucking break :(

i'd rather be back in school

right smack in the front row

attending johney josephs math lesson.

im serious.

akjs;kd';lsad oi.

charmant - im working at the ps outlet. do drop by :)

2005-01-31T23:19:00.000+08:00

god, finally got my much awaited day off today
after slaving my feet off at dorothy perkins
for three days from 1-9pm
tsk. guess what. i got like about 5 comments so far from customers that i looked like ruien
...
but im so proud of myself
that i managed to last this long
stop laughing ras. BE PROUD OF ME LAH!
at least i ll get 30% off at dp & topshop too (:
so met up with alicia and ruth today
got my ear pierced.
we made friends with 3 aussie dudes
oh wait did i mention that brad is H.O.T ?!
haha alicia you one lucky babe,
caucasian-magnet seh, wootwoooots.
eew and i hate my mum. she went to bangkok and got her botox done
and she didnt fucking tell me !?
I WANNA GO SHOPPING !! >:(
there there. she got me some lingeries though :D
right, i bloody need a foot massage now
any kind souls out there ?

2005-01-24T10:30:00.000+08:00

the two of us; thats dangerous

woke up early today.

dreamt that i had a boyfriend and he died.

mmm.

anyways, im just loving my life now

no school, no work, all play.

if only i can remain like this forever..
the long weekend was spent tanning &shopping.
bought - a guess handbag
- a mango top

- a pair of jeans from mango

- white pants from far east

- fcuk cap
- angels and demons by dan brown
- i love bad boys by various authors
- nail polish and more nail polishs

oi vey. i hate it when i have cash,
and theres nothing to buy.
then when i broke,
i want everything in the world.
so sickening man.

watched alfie and aviator too.

average movies but jude laws all worth it

dont you just adore british accents ? -beams

everyone ride on the death cab please :)

2005-01-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

fucking lazy.
thank god its sunday :)

2005-01-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

im semi-paralysed;
my body is in a state of hibernation.
it has even become a chore to dress up
and get myself out of the house.
roar i can just stay home everyday
with the company of my laptop and tv
eat; sleep; swim; tan; read read read :)
but no. mum wants me to work.
what a spoiler, bitch.

(haha yaa. i quit tcc long ago.)

sigh. kenneths flying back to melb tmrw ?
BRING ME BACK TO MELB WITH CHIUUUU !

-whines
anything ! anything will doooooooo..
just dont make me stay in sg :(

bao - haha, cigerattes and vanilla ice blended are my new best friends now. coffee one day ? :)) hurrhurr and please stop your gods nonsense. so silly my dear. and yepps maybe i had been really naughty thts why santa gave me such an awful gift for the new year. anyways, its okay. you dont have to cheer me up. you ought to take care of yourself more.

vonne - thanks dear.

victoria - mmm. thats really nice of you. i will try to smile but i may look happy on the surface but im hurting deep inside. so whats the point ?

charms` - yeaa, thnx. i made all my layouts by myself.

ruthaye - miss you too !

alicia - ditto <3

passerby - yesyes, im aware of the effects but you live life only once so who gives a fly yeah.

2005-01-15T13:05:00.000+08:00

tug at my sleeve

my little boy, superboy

he don't know that i have stole my smile

from a cheshire cat.

2005-01-15T01:52:00.000+08:00

watch the stars fall down
& everything else fall apart;

things werent looking bright these days
but thanks people, for all those <3s.
seed of chucky with jean and tia today
sickening flick, dont watch.
or you will know what i mean.
crapping sessions and updates of school
haiiya believe it or not, i miss school.
tsktsk.
bumped into brokens wyn carol mel
had my long-lost tongla chicken rice.
oh boy. so sinful dammit but its all worth :)
in the mean time
menthol lights and vanilla iceblended is
love yo :))

you cant spell believe without a lie

2005-01-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

it hurts.
in so many fucking ways.

2005-01-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

gosh, havent been online for the past few days and i feel so disconnected from the world already. i wonder what will my life without technology man. tsktsk.

oh and i didnt know that poly is gonna start in may or earlier this year ? but theres still a very high chance that i will be going to melbourne to further my studies 'cos theres no courses in any of the polys here that intrigue my interest and jc is definitely out of the question. hurr

anyways, i started work at tcc today. more like training actually. the pay sucks and they hold such high standards. wtf. im having doubts about it, am not too sure how long can i hang on =\ wells, we ll see about it.

dioraddict.

boo >> no prbm sweetie (:

passerby >> omg. not to be rude or anything. but i have enough of that ruien crap. lol. so gimme a break already kthx. bt i ll still take as a compliment anyways 'cos i gotta admit it that shes rather pretty after losing all that weight -smiles

natalie >> KNN LAHH. WAHAHAHA !! basket. im up for mahjong any day my dear. errh, i think. hees. yepps

passerbyy >> uhms, i use photoshop.

clare >> WHAT !! YOU RE GOING MI ?! -laughs hysterically and dies. hohoho. all the best dude.

victoria >> haha. im so not used to hearing ppl wishing to gain weight. so pardon me for freaking out. lol. i know that there are pills that encourage weight gain tho im not sure where but you can check it out yaa. and ayes you re so hilarious pls. STIFF FRINGE. hahaha thats new ? anyways, im in the same boat as you now. my short fringe make my face look bloated. knn >:( oh yes, i got the job. but the pays really little so i may not hang on. hehs. i know i suck. prrfft

2005-01-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

Her dress,
Your shoes,
Little flower bruise
Old smoke in your hair,
No subway fare, but you don't care.

im happy with my life, but never satisfied. something is always missing no matter what. because everytime i made an accomplisment or got my desires pleased, i want to strive for more, something better and fly on to a higher ground. and when i dont get what i want, i ll hit rock bottom and be left in despondency.

you get the drift.. nothing can leave me contented for a permanent time even after comparing myself with those unfortunate ones at the tsunami disaster or the kids in africa. its human nature, is it ?

oh just some random thoughts.

i may be going for some job interviews tomorrow. im so sick of idling around everyday. its really meaningless and i feel useless. at least i ll feel productive working and getting paid at the same time (:

i went back to school yesterday, not reallys, but over at the primary school. and i realised i actually do miss school. having to see my friends five days a week, sitting in the front row with cheryl/alicia my whores and still daydream, jieshun's laughter, oh the whole class lah, ogling at the younger boys (okay, its just me =\ ), the recess gang <333 !!!! and so much more. just not the teachers, lessons and exams. ha.

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fengting >> im using the sony cybershot. urmms, photoshop ?

ras >> *bearhugs for you too my dear. nye was so much fun! sigh. i want more !! -whines. anyways, be good for 2005 ! ahaha if not when you re out at sea, i ll go have affair ! wahahaha.

andrea >> no, if you realised, i uploaded more already. uhhs, i cant remember any except for rui en, gurmit and michelle chong.

ruthaye >> you looking wickedly hot too my bestie :D

bao >> i unlocked it already, so enjoy !

victoria >> omg, while you cant wait to gain weight, im trying so hard to shake of my fats ! ahhhhhhh, i hate you !! hmphs. oh and how short is your fringe, theres many ways still that you can style it (: lol my resolution is not to make any resolutions.

natalie >> im gonna slay you the next time i see you. roar

clare >> you mean the girl on my layout ? thats elle meh ?

passerbiiesss >> hahaha ! my resolution is to not many any resolutions. and yepps, i had tons of fun indeed. hope you had your own fair share (: happy 2005 !

boo >> nope, i dont. blogger imaging kinda screw your photos up i think. i use photobucket.

peiying >> oh pls. i dont look fly with those ugly doodlings on my face ! i look like a suaku i tell you. booo. happy 2005 too !

charr >> haha you will regret saying that. i rather be in school now. im so bored of home, town, sg fucker. im just idling around everyday. rotting away.. its hitting a toll on me. bhaa.

fiona >> i tagged on your blog alr. linked you too (:

melVYN >> oh you wont wish you were at sentosa. it was shitified boring bitch.

2005-01-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

[edit] sorry i forgot to unlock the galleries. anyways here they are:

nye bash;
firstdayofzerofive.

total of 142 photos and more in my folder but not showing blehs. [/edit]

well hello 2005 :D

2004, what a year. all the good/bad experiences and lessons learnt. im so glad its finally part of history.

anyways, nye celebration was a bash dude.

everyone - ariel, alicia, ruth, rasyidin, kenneth, edison, ks, gary, daryl.

photohunt all those fingerpressing and fighterjetfastreaction. sentosa countdown fiasco with cheekopeks and no fireworks fucker. swissotel the stamford presidential suite right on top of the world ((: fucking b-e-a-u-tee-ful view of marina bay. daidee tyconess and chardonay, eyeliner doodling wahaha. classic please. total havoc. foamspray fight, stuffing leftoverfoamspray into theboysboxers and moisturizer faceplants. dancing in the clouds. blue sun-fucking-rise. act-cute-jap bikini photoshoot oh yeah with alicia my whore. room service room service baby. leaving the room with a typhoon had just passed through.

definitely one of the best nye celebrations ever.

ruth/me/alicia at sentosa delifrance

after the countdown; ruth/me/ras/ken

triggerhappy ourselves silly at the hotel balcony

daidee doodling freaks. wahaha !

love alls !

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passerby. >> yepps, i made it myself. thanks.

victoria >> omg ! my hair suffers the same fate as yours ! growing at snailslowspeed and thickens fast like hell. so i have to layer it once every few months which makes the growing process even slower. wtf. o wells, im definitely not going back to that stylist anymore. what a nightmare. lol. yes happynewyear once again. all the best for your newyearresolutions. wahaha. if you even made some. 'cos i didnt xP 'cos i know i will never fulfil them. hehs.

peiying >> yesyes, im over it ! :D

ras >> wahahaha !! you are like the most babes-crazy guy i ve ever known ! tsktsk. o my cheekyhornylaogong. stop being so babes-crazy before i divorce you. hmphs.

passer >> thanks. typo err.

nicknack >> i appreciate your condolences. bahh, im just fucking sore that its not the desired outcome that i wanted after spending more than 6 hours there. wtf -rollseyes

clare >> ELLE WOODS ?! WHERE ?

star >> yepps. its a girl's worst nightmare ! oh gees.

cliffy >> -.-

2004-12-30T08:03:00.000+08:00

yeah whatev, im not a whiner. im just sore.

[bitch]

-pulls hair

roars i am infuriated. my hairs like a fucking bunch of hay now. fuck fuck fuck.

all thanks to that brainless dimwit stylist i went to at some stupid salon down clarke quay. he fucking misunderstood my instructions and highlighted my hair RED.

but hello !? i wanted a brown base and blonde highlights !? are you deaf or just plain stupid ! roaroaroar.

all my close friends around me knows that i hate red hair. no no no no no no not even red streaks ! what the fuck. i was so abhorred and furious when i saw the final outcome. i look like a fucking cannot make it ah lian.

and you guys know that my hair is fucking precious to me. i spent more than 2 years growing it and now its all ruined thanks to that motherfucking son of a bitch. cheebye freak.

so in the end, i demanded a redye and now my hair is back to the original brown color i had in the beginning. what irks me the most is that i colored my hair TWICE in a day and after 7fuckinghours, all i got is the same color as before. the only difference is that my hair is DAMAGED.

yesyes, i know, treatment. but no matter how many treatments i do, my hair wont be as healthy and soft as ever. arrrrgh. fuck you.

and i should have been smart enough that he has a brain the size of a pea with a pair of screwed up hands. but no i was so dumb to have asked him to trim my fringe till the bottom of my nose. YES AND HE SCREWED IT UP AGAIN. he fucking trimmed it to my eye !

KNN. I THINK YOU ARE BOTH DEAF AND BLIND RIGHT !? its a total of 5 cm difference and after being in that industry for many years as a professional stylist, this is what you ve got to offer me !? you must be kidding.

i have nothing to say, but may your salon go burst and collapsed. fuckwit.

[/bitch]

many thanks to shanqi for consoling me.

met up with ruth and alicia after that. thanks girls for making the night so fine and fly. you girls are just magical. i ll never exchange anything for you my prettyprettys. not even cash, a bed of roses or a hot dropdeadgorgeous figure. lol. and i know i have said this umpteenth times last night, but i wanna say it again. i love you ((:

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victoria >> aww, you must have suffered much. truck loads of thanks for your suggestions and tips. i appreciate (: but i think i ll search for that perfect job by myself. (i know it will never come lol) yepps. i have troubled you enough. teehee. happy new year !

passerbyyy >> why thank you !

passerbbiess >> i like you. you re really sweet. thanks for that advice. much love !

blabber >> try what for mango and zara ? you mean jobs ? nahh, those are too tough for a weakling like me. thanks anyways.

ras >> horny horny ! ahaha ! you. just cant get enough of babes. tsktsk.

2004-12-28T11:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RASYIDIN ! (:

new skin ! i really like it. something soft and sweet to usher in the new year.

this morning i finally decided to hang my clothes, which were all unironed, unfolded on the couch, in my wardrobe. and i could not fit most of them into it. the result of 3 major and a few mini shopping trips during the holidays. tsktsk what amuses me most is that some of the older clothes still have their price tags on -.-

impulsive shopper i am.

grrr you know what. that warm fuzzy feeling has faded awayyy.. ):

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victoria >> ahaha ! i have done loads of shopping this holidays. and yepps it did burn a fucking big hole in my pocket so that means i have to get a job soon. and i was thinking of working in a fashion boutique as well. hehe f&b is definitely not my cup of tea. so i was wondering which boutique are u working at, any lobangs for me ? (:

star >> lol those malay boys are uber hot pls. but no mats thankyouverymuch. hahaha. anyways i have linked you okayys ?!

anon >> oh, my dear sister gave it to me. merry xmas to you too ! (:

charr >> merry xmas to you babe ! did you close down your blog or something. uhms.

kellies >> aww thanks girl. but no, am not cute. photos are deceiving.

passerrbbies >> mmm. i have no idea. but it has faded away. boohooos

2004-12-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

im totally exhausted, jaded, whacked and tired.

i think i ate so much the past two days, i dont have to eat for the next one week.

my ass has been glued to the couch for the past 4 hours from the moment i woke up. i love post-xmas, especially more its a lazy (boxing day) sunday and the weathers so chilling, and all you wanna do is to reminisce on the incredible times you spent on christmas.

im having this warm, fuzzy feeling inside me. no its not love. but im enjoying it and dont want it to go away.

christmas was quiet and unexpected but beautiful.

eve.
4 amazing people;
mad shopping;
trigger happy;
oceans twelve with vip seats;
4 course canndle-lit dinner;
white roses;
rollercoaster-car rides;
breathtaking sceneries;
no crazy orchard crowds (;

day.
bbq;
mahjong;
love actually;
and him;
by the poolside;
o pretty perfect.

i dont dare ask for more.

at least 2004 is winding up with a happy ending though most of the year was a painful and disappointing one.

oh and merry christmas everyone tho its late but yeah, hope you guys received a lil love :D

replies will come later.

but to ruthie&alicia >> im terribly sorry i didnt spend xmas with ya again. i promise we ll have a blast on new years aiight ?! ((: but most importantly, hope you girls had a amazing xmas even without me cos happiness and joy is all i wish for for the both of you now. love y'alls so much so so so much -hugsandsqueezesyalltodeath

2004-12-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

omfg like finally i get to stay at home and rest my poor lil toesies boo. im so fucking glad to be home. everywheres so fucking crowded. hate crowds. hate tiny singapore why do you have to be so small. the past few days were crazy. i have no idea what i have been busy with but i had some fly time yahoos x)

everyone stop touching me , pointing at my bones and saying they are jerking out cos' they are not. i cant feel them but am feeling my fats growing.

i think im back to my bimbo days. maybe its just the xmas thing. hohoho. i know you guys missed barbie. i do too ): im typing a lil spastic here. oh and thanks to the lack of school, my handswriting has become spastic too whenever i try to lift a pen. so i decided not to write my xmas list but then my sister can be so smart to suggest i type it down =\ oh bimboness.

xmas is coming !!

o wells. im just high. o the joy oh la la la la.

i dont know why i have this sudden fetish for malays with ash blonde hair :DD im just boy crazy. oh my lovely gfs, what happened to the boy scouting ? wootwoots. i miss you girlies ):

you know what i cant wait for 2005. i have suffered much in 2004. 2003's the rad. classic always. but you cant hold on to the past. let go and move on bitch. ties broken but memories not forgotten.

will you be my santa and get me that adidas sneakers boohooos -whines

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passerbyyy >> yupps. im cutting down on sweet and oily fried food already. but the festive season is killing my efforts. oh boy. all the food. how to resist ? lol.

anon >> thnx, its key-ear (:

2004-12-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

earwax` ashanti - only you

because i do not fancy disclosing every single detail of what i do of my daily life (and it might bore you), you'll have the pleasure of feasting your eyes.

so this is what i have been doing the past week. well, almost.

go ahead.

click
click
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passerbyyy >> haha. its jst my lower body lah. i have a heavy bottom ): and oh yes i remember you. who re you btw ?

victoria >> thnx girl. bt oh no its okayy. you dont have to worry about it yea. anws, nice meeting you at the concert. take care !! :D

charr >> lol my girl, partying is not healthy. all the food and drinks. how sinful please.

star >> ahah i see i see. hope to bump into you in town someday yaa. aye you havent tell me your blog url yets. tsk

passerby >> i get it from tonystone.

passerby >> yes yes i know. you dont have to rub it in kthx.

ruth >> lol. look whos talking.

2004-12-15T11:46:00.000+08:00

earwax` jay sean - stolen

i miss waking up at 3 in the afternoon.

during the study break before o's, i was sleeping at 3-5am, not studying but chatting online, watching late night movies and soccer matches with my brother. but now its the holidays, and im slumped on the bed dreaming of josh hartnett (: and that guess model ((: and seth cohen (((: by 1am, then im up by 9am. tsk -.-

someone tell me somethings wrong with me.

i want to be a nocturnal bitch again ):

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passerbyyy >> lol. thnx (: oh i get sick of things pretty fast, so yepps its no surprised that i love changing my url every now and then. and yes I AM FAT. kthx. i just know how to conceal them, im not so stupid to show it to the world. urrms, i wore those braces for about 20 months ? tho its only supposed to be 18. and it cost about 4K.

passerby >> i got it from miss selfridge my dear.

natalie >> ahaha i have no idea. it gets pretty sickening =|

star >> hehs, yes its santaaaa !! oh anyways, you shifted your blog right. whats your new url ? mmm you are wearing braces now ? ayeaye i didnt realised. ahaha nopes, i got the top from miss selfridge. you take care too babe (:

2004-12-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

earwax` death cab for cutie - stability

mel's back from perth ! havent seen that lame chick for almost 6 months aye. so met up with her, wyn, carol, willie and yingting yesterday.

caught national treasure, the plot's vaguely familiar to the da vinci code. so those who enjoyed reading the da vinci code would definitely like the show lah. ohoh ! heard they are gonna produce the da vinci code into a movie. how cool is that ?! looking forward :DDD

after that, we went to the carnival at orchard mrt. went into this creepy ghost house thing ?! fucks its damn fun please, i screamed my balls out even when theres nothing scaring us ? im such a retard =\ and i was so occupied shrieking like as if im gonna die that i knocked my head into this damn pole -.- knn. thanks wyn for rubbing it but theres an awful bump on my forehead now. grrr

hanging out with those humans are just pure madness. kinda missed the broken seven days. but im happy with the present anyways (:

december 2003

oh i found this lurking somewhere in the favourites list o.O

errh. enjoy.

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kone. >> phuture (:

2004-12-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

earwax` michael buble - let it snow (:

yay new layout but the links arent working yet :D are you feeling the xmas spirit yet ?! 'cos i am -jumps around

okay i need a job badly. BADLY. im in a critical financial crisis. if i dont get a job soon, like any job, part-time or whatever, im gonna hit rock bottom and sink all the way down down down. any job offers people ?

gees, i miss my home at eunos. i havent been there for almost 3 weeks already. no wait, i think i miss my mum. reallys ): shes gonna fly to bangkok soon for her operation. kinda worried yes. oh wells, i ll make a trip back one of these days i guess since its only less than 1 mile away and all im doing these days is lazing, rotting, slacking around. i have no life -.-

oh anyways, i have added a couple more photos from my birthday to my birthday album. they are all pretty blur and screwed and ugly. prrrfft

AND I TOOK OUT MY BRACES ALREADY !! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA !! :DDDDDDD

me and ruth in the cab on the way to zouk

my lovelys (: at some coffeeshop before zouk

2004-12-03T18:48:00.000+08:00

im here 'cos im happy :D

yayness, like finally -takes a breather

was at the class chalet the past few days. i wouldnt exactly say it was smashing hell fun but i had some fun nonetheless. hehs and i actually cleaned up the room and helped out with the barbercuing ! yesyes. soon, i ll be a qualified maid, to make it sound nicer, a housekeeper.

eh being a housekeeper earn good money okay. $10 per hour and you can burn an insane number of calories at the same time. just perfect for me -grins

but no, i may be miss macedemia nut. but im not so nuts to be a MAID ?!! hurr, you gotta be kidding me.

talking about money, yes i need a job badly. so tight on cash and i still have to pay for that damn camera -pouts

ruth may be paying half of it and my mums lending me money first to return it to her boyfriend but i still have to return her the money by instalments and i could have use that money to buy all the stuffs that i want instead of wasting it on.. nothing. sigh.

oh wells. at least, the storm is clear. tho its still drizzling.

money makes the world go round..

2004-11-26T01:58:00.000+08:00

its that CONTACT HIGH.

these bare words are all i have to say. my brain has turned into mush from all this crying and complications. im flustered, exhausted and completely lost.

im devoid of happiness and joy.

even while im in such a hopelessly pathetic state, im trying so hard to be strong for my friends out here who are depressed as well. you know who you are. i said all i have to say. but my energy's sapping out.. i cant hold on any longer. cant you see im crumbling too?

love. take it with no shame.

and all i want to do is sleep and see a familiar face. the ones from my old life when i was still pleased with myself. because they might be able to explain these feelings of mysterious proportion.

but, oh,
it'll never happen.
for i am stuck
in here
with no door, and no
other way out.

say died..

2004-11-25T03:25:00.000+08:00

im coughing out blood.

no, its not pleasant.

2004-11-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

replies>>

vonne - yes darling. thnx for the cake anws (: movie date soon yupps ?

waiyee - ahaha oh pls ! so paiseh lah. i hav to make a fool of myself on our first meeting and on my bdae smemre -.- sighes. yepps, thnx for lending me your lap to lie on. hehs. love

ras - thnx for being there ras. at least i didnt get drunk earlier 'cos you were there. haha ilu !! :D

natalie - dont worry. i ll solve the cam thing myself. and yes, your present still with me too ! jst tht i havent got it wrapped yet. oops. hehe

cliffy - lol yaa thnx. didnt expect you to be there anws. hope you enjoyed urself or sth ? -smiles

shane - thnx dude ((:

ruth - ilu* darling. theBESTfriend !

lynn - yepps, im kyer. and you re ? haha urrms, i cant remember what color was it. i colored it myself. hehs. rather long ago..

star - ayes yes. bt im fine now. haha thnx for lucks (: lovelove too !

passerby - i make my own skins kthx.

peiying - haha ! yes triggerhappy darling *clickclick

2004-11-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

pics re up.
click click !

more will be up soon (:

2004-11-22T13:10:00.000+08:00

my birthday celebration on saturday was a total disaster. it was just a jinxed day, numerous awful things happened. i wish i could just treat them as a fucking joke. but no, not when emotions and financial issues are concerned.

first, when i was leaving home to town with ruth to meet up with alicia, shanqi and angie, i tripped over my neighbor's bicycle and fell flat on the floor. what a great start ayes. and both of us had a six sense that things are gonna get worse later in the day. and it did.

some mother fucker son of bitch stole my digicamera. okay, the thing is that its not mine. its my mum's bfs. and it cost 900 bucks. i know i should have been more careful since im always losing small gadgets like handphones and shits. plus my mum even called me especially to remind me to take extra caution of the cameras. cheebye. and this have to happen on my birthday. im fucking scared now.. im dont know how am i gonna tell my mum =\ shes just gonna flip. its not 9 or 90 bucks. is NINE HUNDRED DOLLARS for god's sake. i doubt shes gonna buy me a handphone now. i dont even think she will trust me with expensive gadgets anymore. damn you bloody pickpocket.

then we had dinner at fish&co. @ the glasshouse. and barely 10 minutes after we sat down, there was a blackout -.- yesyes. how bad can things get ? i think im plagued by a curse. everything i do just turns out bad. okay at least the food were heaven. i got cookies and cream ice cream cake from swesens by the way (: nick, darrel, isaac, weiming (spelling?), rasyidin and ashley arrived late tho, but anyhows, i had fun there :D

head to rouge after that, ivan, my homeboy <3 was so nice to reserve a table and got anyone in for free ((: but some fuckers dont appreciate it at all. they just plonk their fat ass on the couches, never drink, never dance (okay, forgiven cos the music sucks), told me the music sucked and left after half an hour. who the fuck goes to a club and not drink and dance !? what the fuck, you could have tell me earlier and i wont have ordered the drinks. fucking waste of money. and if you happened to read this and is still too dumb to know it is you, let me have the pleasure of typing your name down,

ADRIAN LEE SOON TAT. YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS CAN JUST ROT IN HELL. I DONT APPRECIATE THAT STUPID MUG YOU GAVE ME. YOU THINK YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH A GIFT (WHICH I THINK ITS RECYCLED)!? WAIT LONG LONG. I WAS NICE ENOUGH TO INVITE YOU AND GOT YOUR UNDERAGE FRIENDS IN FOR FREE AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME ? wow. im so thankful. some friend you are. you cheebye face, dont ever let me see you in town ever again.
ever.

waiyee, clifford, john and niq came, sidney was there too. everyone were at the couches drinking and playing cards but i was drinking and talking with rasyidin and ivan at another table near the dancefloor. just thank god rasyidin was there to listen out to me. hes always there anyways. to let me whine and bitch about my unhappiness <3 oh wells. after he left around 1230, i went to the toilet to cry and drank myself silly.

god, its how embarrassing can. dickson, my sister's friend, came over to say hi, and i was already half-drunk so i was blabbering away. shit i dont even know i said those stuff to him till he told my sister to tell me what happened. our first meeting and i have to leave a bad impression. well done kyer.

the whole night was just a blur. i was so drunk. my head was spinning and spinning and all i could was to lie on the couch. ruth said i lied on many other people too. ruth, waiyee, clifford, and sidney. what the fuck, so paiseh already lah. and when i was in the toilet puking, she said i fell on to the sanitary pad bin. hahaha and i have a bump on my head now..

we tonned at nick/darrels place after that. i cant even remember how i managed to climb the 3 storeys into darrels room. pretty amazing, ruth said shes so proud that i didnt fall while climing up the stairs. haha.

i woke up in the morning with a terrible hangover. i tried my best to eat during the buffet when i was at my grandma's. but all i did was puke everything out. its just horrible. so many relatives and strangers were over there but i was just a piece of train wreck. after half an hour, my sister and i left for my dad's place a few streets away. i was walking in circles and kept falling down. finally, i broke down. cried throughout the walk. my sister was just laughing at me, how mean right. but then i started laughing too. which was quite hilarious actually 'cos i look like total fool.

yea so i spent my birthday crying, puking and sleeping. pathetic you say ? nvm. havent ate anything from saturday night till now too. just a birthday cake peiying, von and nique bought for me this morning. hope my appetite stays this way forever. hehs.

anyways, i just wanna thank everyone who were there. im glad to spend my birthday with wonderful friends like y'alls tho it was a awful one. im thankful nonetheless. those who took care of me when i was drunk, ruth especially, i dont know what will happen to me if you werent there. thanks for taking care of me, being there for me and just being a great friend. ilu* im sorry that the day sucked and the night was worse. more thanks for the presents, birthday messages, those who called just to wish me.. deming, harith, vin, nick, von, peiying, and many more. cant remember.

happy ~~sweet~~ sour sixteen kyer ):

2004-11-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

spinning: the vines - autumn shade

[edit]yay. im gonna have my birthday party this saturday night at rouge! all friends are invited (: just give me a ring or text me to let me know whether you are interested. the cover charge is free by the way. please make your decision by TONIGHT. thanks![/edit]

great, my 16th birthday is in 4 days. ~~and i have no idea how am i gonna spend my day. im definitely not going anywhere on my birthday 'cos im so fucking lucky to have my science paper 1 the next day. so im gonna stay home and mug for it.~~ hehe, grandma's birthday in on the 21st too according to the lunar calendar so theres gonna be a buffet and celebration for both of us :D wonderful..

i was thinking of a dinner with the brokened7 on saturday instead but melissa's not in sgp and theres so much tension going on amongst the rest so im afraid it wont turn out the way i want it to be. gosh, how sad can it get.

~~thank god i still have a joint birthday party with angie, alicia and cheryl on the next weekend. bt it seems that its going nowhere too -sulks~~

to look on the bright side, my parents are giving me a heavy heavy red packet, shanqi have already bought chocolates for me (so please, no more chocolates! im already sweet enough kthx :D), deming got me the oc season two episode 1, and nique my silly banana is giving me a secret surprise ? hehs, what lovely friends i have -beams

anyways, heres my birthday wishlist:
-earrings or rather, guess hoop earrings/clothes/accessories etc
-books novels books novels BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS !
-more tattoos + piercings [you can sponsor me (:]
-lots and lots and lots of [pointed] heels. yahoo
-vintage goodies will be fabulous
-the oc season two dvds [fine, its not out yet -pouts]
-anything from dior, fendi, lv, burberry, ysl etc and im yours forever -grins.
-esprit: for my senses perfume
-a new handphone
-a new polaroid cam [mines getting really ancient]
-death cab for cutie/something corporate/rooney/the oc soundtrack albums
-shopping vouchers ? haha

im fine with anything actually. just dont get me useless and impractical stuffs like soft toys, but characters from winnie the pooh and mogu cushions are exceptions. hehs.

2004-11-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

7 ELEVEN SELLS BEN&JERRYS ICE CREAM. YAYAYAYAYAY.

2004-11-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` alien ant farm - attitude

gosh, im so shagged. just gonna blog in point form..

-towned with angie and rico yesterday.
-caught sharktales with rico; not funny.
-met up with ruth, darrel, desmond, nick and ash later at night.
-arcaded. and caught taxi; not funny.
-tonned at ash's place.
-watched final destination II with the boys. god, its gruesome. but i like (:
-slpt at 630 and woke up at 11am. fucker
-returned home at 3pm and got nagged at by not my MOTHER, not my FATHER, but my mother's BOYFRIEND. cheebye.. what a spoiler >:(

i have come to realise that i no longer laugh hysterically at comedies eg. sharktales and taxi. i still do laugh for the sake of laughing though or sometimes, just half-heartedly. im not too sure whether is it the movie or is it just me ? i dont know, but i think comedies are losing its effect on me. maybe i have experienced and gone through so much that i am no longer fascinated or amused by anything anymore.

tia]] >> im terribly sorry darling ! it was an impromptu decision to watch taxi lah. not plan okay.. if not i wont ask you for a movie date tomorrow. but you can watch it with angie still. shes interested (: yeps, we'll hang out after my o's hun. cant wait too !! (:

natalie >> im gonna paint my toes black too !! hehehe.

2004-11-13T11:06:00.000+08:00

oooo i have black nails.

2004-11-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH WAHAHAHAHAHAH !! OMFG OMG THIS IS FUCKING NOT HAPPENING !! NO NO NO NO ! OH NO OH NO YES YES YES IT IS !! THNX RUTH !! SMUCKS SMWAHS SMOOCHES ! <333 YOU DID THE RIGHT THING !! AHAHAHA IM FLYING OVER THE MOON !! LOL GOD THIS IS LIKE MY HAPPIEST AND MOST ECSTATIC MOMENT SINCE AGES AGO. SORRY I STILL CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT SINCE LAST NYTE. I NEED TO SCREEEEEEEEEAAAAAAM!! OMG I LOVE RUTH !! I LOVE YOU YOU YOU YOU TOO !! ILU ILU ILU !! ((: HAHAH YOU STUPID ASS. ONE BIG SILLY FOOL.. BUT YOU AINT NOW. WAHAHA. I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A MAD WOMAN NOW. BUT WHO CARES HEHEHE. SWEET SIXTEEN !! LOVE.

mmm, yea. bye. i need to calm down : DDDDDD

2004-11-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` the shins - pink bullets

i have been having really outrageous dreams lately.

on tuesday night, i dreamt that i was in the train kissing my boyfriend (reel one!). and he was someone in my school that is considered hot by most girls but never in my right mind would i like him, be together with him or kiss him !! EEW PUI PUI PUI ! yikes =\ anyways, if you want to know who that guy is.. i can give you a clue. hes from sec 3. pretty obvious eh ? but you can always ask me personally (:

and yesterday night, i dreamt that i was this long-lost heiress to a multi-million dollar company. so when the chairman died, i inherited all of his wealth and became the richest teenage girl in the world over night. then the scene was changed to a penthouse, supposedly my house perhaps ? hehe. and i was playing pool with angie and alicia. the oddest thing is that the balls were knitted ?! o.O errhh okay.. i wonder why werent they made of gold and diamonds. that will be totally wicked. ha.

i think i fantasize too much. sigh

i know im a potential lesbian. its not wrong. BUT DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A LESBIAN ?

2004-11-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` the used - blue and yellow

im back ! did you miss me ? yeah like you care. was away for a short hiatus due to o's. but it didnt really make it a difference as i was still online most of the time. anyways, its the one week break and its just down to 3 PAPERS. geography, amaths p2 and science p1 -phew :D

i think i did fine for most of the subjects except for physics. its gonna pull my science grade down down down and thats gonna be my downfall i swear. oh wells =\

i got my hair dyed !! thanks to ruth (: i absolutely have no patience to wait for another two god damn weeks. but the color isnt that evenly spread out. gees, i ll just drop by a salon after o's to redye it and get some highlights at the same time.

i had a heart to heart talk with ruthie yesterday. it was awesome. oh and we caught princess diaries 2. it was boring.. 'cos there are no hotties !! shut up ruth. nicholas is not charming ! he is like this ugly version of andrew firestone from the bachelor. and andrew is not that handsome either. ugh, whatev.

get the hell outta of my face.

everyone give me some hugs 'cos im typing this whole chunk of crap with my eyelids on the ground. only been having about 4 hours of sleep daily and i just got back from the (failed) tanning session with angie and alicia. i want a tanning machine. haha, for my birthday present anyone ?

please tell me sleeping after dinner does not make you fat.

2004-10-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` rooney - losing all control

trick or treat!!

i really wanna go to a halloween party this weekend. and just go wild. anyone ?

someone please answer the door. i think O's knocking.
just mildly panicking.

everything has changed, and there is nothing you can do about it.
i have no faith in relationships.
p.s.you dont have a reason to block me.

2004-10-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

Am I drowning you out?

Boasts of defection
If everything was up to me,
I would be gone by the first sight
The first sight of hope

I'd be packed up and out on my way.

Time has been spread so thin
And it's just hours 'fore the day begins.
And the things that are keepin you here

are not keepin me here.
The things that are keepin you here
will keep me away.

And "you'll be sorry" isn't that what they'll say?
Don't follow your heart

'cos it just seems to get in your way.
And dont ever leave here

And mope at your leisure

And straighten out your crease dear

And truth is in a tall beer..

(Oh cant you see)

Thats the end.

2004-10-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered why people cut themselves?

To compound this profession of morose existence when it hurts just to breathe, you pick up a tapered stranger and press it against your pale slender wrist. You slowly watch your veins vomit reddish-black matter and you feel purged. But you aren't cleansed -- you still feel dirty but then again you're always dirty. You hear an euphonious silence and the melancholy drowns in stasis -- but it's all temporary and soon blood cries its own tears; you feel moisture trickling down and forming little beautiful oval droplets on your fingertips; an essential picturesque portrait of pulchlritude in self harm and your wrist begins to radiate a therapeutic tremble which seems to console you with its superficial degree of pain. The blood is bereft of pathos and a symbolic visit to reality; a representation of the heart's hurt so you think it's soothing -- but it's physical.

And you see it as a perpetual reminder of your sorry state.

- snobpride

2004-10-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` HIM - right here in my arms

bha peeps, i lost my mobile. slipping into total oblivion. but i ll get a replacement soon, since my mums been so chilli chilli bang bang generous these days. hurrah !

ouch. arsenal lost ): damn man u. damn ruth. ras and i are out to getcha !! rwaah

gahh, i have absolutely no mood to blog nowadays. stamina's running out. novelty's fading. sick and tired of being sick and tired. if you think you know, you probably don't. its kind of lame, but im a lame person so it works.

i burn
whatev.

natalie >> ahahah ! lets get married and elope together now ! waaaaahhH

passerbyyy >> u mean u speak with an accent ? u re not singaporean chinese ? anws, accents are sexy. its totally rad pls. so treat as a gift or sth. yupps, i did screwed up my prelims. my results re ard tht range, seriously :| re u in j1 or j2 btw ?

ruthaye >> whats new ? i love you girlfriend ! smwahs !!

zabby >> eeee harrods ? whats the big deal abt it, the things there re horrid. and expensive. rwah rwah

lein >> omg, wow thts pretty cool. bt how is tht possible ? why dont u wanna complete ur course then travel as much as u want. hmmms.

clare >> SHABAM !! cos u re being naWtAye. puahahahA !

* >> urmms, i did it at alive tattoo studio at ming arcade near forum. yups

2004-10-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` aqualung - strange and beautiful

http://www.ucomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1993/10/21/
http://www.ucomics.com/garfield/2004/10/11/

just for laughs : DDD

national geographic is the coolest channel ever.

2004-10-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

i want to be an English.

so i can speak with a thick British accent and alicia will love me.
so i can get stoned on drugs all day, smoke cigerattes, and still attract cute boys.
so i can watch haWt ~!!~!1! lesbians making out with each other on television.
so i can wear leather coats and knee-length boots and saunter down the London Bridge.
so i can read Cosmopolitan by the hippest coffee joint in town and get oggled by cute boys.
so i can do crazy thinngs like flashing my tits on the streets and getting stuck in the washing machine at the laundromat:

ruthaye >> haha, i only stopped playing with swings when i was 10 :\ and its DUMBO not JUMBO. cos its my fav cartoon character too ! even til now. THAT MISS TIRU"S HAIR got sabbu(lice) one. dunno keep so long for what. help husband wipe backside. damn funny lah !!

passerby >> bingo ! its kyer btw. urmms im mst prolly gonna go to taylors college in melb and tke MUFY, a one year foundation course to prepare u for uni and i ll head off to uni to study marine science/biology aftr tht (:

mel >> bhwahahah ! nahh i think u ll be mre like a nigga, babe !

raq` >> ayes dunoe. i came across it thru a link. cool ryte !

natalie >> huhs. u swung till u got motion sickness !? how possible is tht !!? lol. i love to throw myself of the swings when im up high and land a thump thud on my feet : DDD but when u fall.. man.. oowwwww.. oh yupps. i dont wanna get 20 and abve man. like, i wanna get at least a decent grade ? sighs ):

tia]] >> its cool ayes. mst prollie created for bored ppl like US.

sheeesh >> am kidding too. HA. so why dont u start introing urself ? like ur sch, age and stuffs ((:

leanne >> i will ! bt i havent been tking much pics lately. hehs

clare >> gees, why not, u twit ! if an elephant would to hump u, it gotta sit on u and therefore it'll ultimately crush and suffocate u to death ! tsk. pls tell me i make sense. if not no more BALLS for youuuu.. boohooooooos !!

zabby >> no idea. does macpherson ite even exist !? haha

alicia >> tsktsk. what mre can i say besides one word: TWIT. gahhh, and why didnt i see u online ! awww.. i miss you ! -pouts

2004-10-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

i had a dream last night.

we had our O levels results back which cheryl and i got a miserable 21 for L1R5. and its scary because we could not get into any jc or poly and were posted to macpherson ITE. :| yea, tell me about it.

whats even scarier is that ms tiru could not stop gloating over my misery. bhaa, you heinous bitch. i knew you were never up to any good anyways, right ruth ? i really wish you'd get breast cancer and an elephant would hump you to death.

okay back to dreamland. so i was sulking with cheryl throughout our orientation at the ITE and i happily chose soccer as my cca. SOCCER !?! WHAT ZE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING ABOUT !! STICK TO NETBALL YOU FREAK &*#$*%#&* !! and the most unbelievable thing happened next:

I CUT MY HAIR. BY MYSELF. AND I HATED IT.

[edit]

i think i looked like this. no, really.
[/edit]

and anyone who's close to me would know that i wanna leave my tresses long which grows at an alarming snail-slow rate and i will never ever ever ever EVER snip it off.

all this just goes to show that dreams never come true. cos i would not be furthering my education in sg and neither would i cut my hair.

die dreams.

replies later y'alls !

2004-10-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` air- alone in kyoto

i really wish i had swings. i really wish i had swings in my backyard. i really wish i had swings in my backyard in my house. swinging brings me back to the times when i was little and happy. the wind flowing through your hair, and the thought that if you fall off, you just may break your leg always makes my heart go a flutter. or maybe that's my gut telling me i have more important things to do than write this.

and you may wanna visit me.
STAY AWHILE. STAY FOREVER

sheeesh >> why must i buy anything for a stranger.

mel >> you kid me not. 42 DEGREES ?! die perth die.

ruthaye >> chill kid. tht bitch is a moronic dirtbag. period. you should be flattered anyways. ppl copy you leh. GOT STYLE ! woots

passerby >> you burn

lein >> U RE SO YES THIN. shut up alr. ahaha thnx btw. hows life for u anws ?

raq` >> aiights (:

zabby >> yes and u dont have to tell me ! i am not blind. neither am i deaf. tsk lol

natalie >> -pats darling.

2004-10-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

i need a brain wash.

2004-10-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` dandy warhols - sleep

wa kao. chem prac is goner i tell you. gone gone gone gone gone GONE.

never mind. theres still theory.

anyways, whos that lalafuck from sec 3 (already ruled out nique, barnabas and tia) who wrote me a note wishing me good luck on the board outside the general office !? tsk. THANKYOUVERYMUCH.

i cant remember telling anyone i will ACE my o's it besides nick but hes not in gm. doh i dont think i will ACE o's anymore since i screwed prac. expected lah.

and which idiot would do well for his o's when hes already planning for post-O's !? kyer ah kyer. quote you are hopeless unquote, MUM.

but for 2 weeks from tomorrow onwards , i ll be at the library studying with the usuals. nat u coming ? come leh ! hehe

natalie >> i didnt know u re so stressed up abt o's. or rather i didnt know u can be so stressed up abt o's. haha. come study with us at the library lah ! ruth makes a good chill pill any damn day. lol right ruth ?

paaserbyyy >> HA. i DID NOT do well for prelims at all. see, i emphasized. so its really nasty. and u wont want to know. for ur own good. and im most prollie going overseas anyways. hees (:

ruthaye >> lol. thats like, obvious ? oh wells, just be a guai kia and join us at the library EVERYDAY yea.

zabby >> you re slow zabb ! haha. yepps, only cheuk ying was in sch. left sch during recess. cannot tahan anymore. mega boring pls. aye re u joining us at the library too ? pls do! :D

lein >> lol waah diet rocks ? re u nuts or what. u re thin enough already ! so bony, still diet. tsktsk. u wanna die is it. only fat people like K Y E R diet.

passerby >> i wasnt DYING what. just hoping (: hehs. but im mst prollie going overseas. so where re you studying at now ?

mel >> kaos. trust me, sg is wayyyyyyyyyyy hotter than perth ! the weather is still and humid. fuck. i bathed like, 4 times, the past few days cos' i was at my wits end. and my air cons switched on now. even at night.

2004-10-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

>> grooving` deathcab for cutie

oh my god. everyone please ignore the previous post. that was so childish. i was incoherent.

cant believe i woke up at 1230. still coughing like mad. its terrible. and my heads spinning. doubt i ll be doing anything productive today. there goes my revision .. sigh

anyway, caught exorcist: the beginning with cliffy last night. phwoaarrr, its extremely disturbing and thrilling. its the one of the best horror show that ever freaked and appalled me out. then again, im a sucker for horror flicks. they are an amusement.

ruthaye >> omg. really ?! no wonder rasyidins still so fat wahahaha !

natalie >> hahaha. well, im still in delusion. that means i will continue to diet/exercise/do whatever i can to get the ideal weight and figure that i want. hehs, i know i sound stupid and you wanna shoot me now. but i am just plain adamant. bhaa

sheeesh >> ooh all lucks for your o's too girl ! wait.. you're a girl right ? hmm, why dont you wanna reveal your identity. that will definitely make things easier for both of us. you can always buy the software. dont have to get the authentic one lahh. i got the pirated one and it works the same.

passerby >> mmm. i dont intend to go to jc.

2004-10-16T01:33:00.000+08:00

jaundiced skin;
scarlet nails;
deceased spirit

extreme pms + servere cold = DEADLY COMBO

ugh

trudging through the night with a heavy heart. to hell with pms. rrrr.. like fuck i cant even roar. wished someone would just slash my throat off. the damn cough is killing me. S L O W L Y. suffocating me each time. im seriously better off dead.

even rasyidins not comforting me. fancy showing me his feet when im unwell. what a blooming imbecile. he may have a good sense of humor but common sense definitely didnt take a ride. and after listening to her, am sinking deeper..

in a turmoil of rage and bitterness.

thank god its gonna be ephemeral.
aint it ?

2004-10-14T17:56:00.000+08:00

rahhh. im sick of amaths ! have been practising it for the whole day.

i am exhausted.

didnt go to school today cos' i overslept and was having a fever too so i decided to just skip it altogether.

sigh kyers a weak weak child. i have to eat like 5 different kinds of medication PLUS my mums horribly bitter tonic soups. urrgh nasty !

and talking about my mum, hrmms shes been really generous these few days ayes. she agreed to my requests of buying a digicam and sponsoring a little of my shopping trips without much a protest or a nag which was the norm. but, i digressed. im the one benefiting here anyways. hehe

rasyidin suggested that i should join him and the fellow muslims for fasting which starts tomorrow since im on a ridiculously skimpy diet anyways. too bad im not a muslim, if not i will gladly fast with them since i have a reasonable excuse to and i wont fail in any other of my diets anymore !

hehs, we ll see about that (:

sheeesh >> creativity + photoshop = gorgeous layouts. haha how am i gonna teach you when i dont even know your identity ? and im having my o's now so im afraid its impossible till my exams are over.

zabby >> yellow yellow dirty felloww !!

natalie >> lol. i want more boom boom !

ruthaye >> yes. yellow. you ve got a problem with that, no ? hehs, just joking sweetie. yupps thanks alot, am drinking buckets and buckets of water already ! you better study hard man.

2004-10-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

mmm. new layout ! made by none other than yours truly here -beams. i will remove the chatterbox soon. its a bloody eyesore, dont you think so ? and i will replace it with a comment box instead. so, besides your lovely comments and blessings for me, leave the damn chatterbox ALONE. comment box added! c'mon, hit the buttons now! laters.

2004-10-13T17:22:00.000+08:00

ooh yes. finally i can post ! : D maybe i can log on to friendster too. double yay ! just practised 4 hrs of emaths, taking a break now. gonna do some physics later on. see, kyer CAN be a good and studious girl. and i may be going to school tomorrow or fri or both.

anyways, i might be moving over to my dad's at kembangan. then i can have my own pivate room back away from my stinko brother again ! and i can ~~sneak~~ bring cliffy back home EVERYDAY. totally fly dude. but the rooms a little small to my liking and the window is pathetic. its only about 30 cm in length down the ceiling. what the fuck. uhmm, i ll just wait for my dad to return from his business trip in shanghai and discuss it with him since i guess my mum already gave the green light (:

my dear sister got her virgin tattoo done last weekend. and im SOOOOOOO itching to get my second spot. i mean i have realised its already been more than a year since i got my tribal butterfly. lol my sister and i both agree that tattooing is indeed addictive. we are both thinking of tattooing tinkerbell the fairy but a different design. isnt that fetch whoa.

alright this is getting lengthy. wanna get my own domain !! hopefully my dad could sponsor me ! DAD = ATM.

2004-10-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

hoolaalaas im a happy happy girl !!
am using the apple powerbooknow
so darn fascinated with it
ahaha its damn fly baby
so cute and portable ((:

also got my hands on the ipod
waaah loving it loving it !

anws carol and wyns back in nz and melb
sighes no more town khakis
to hang out with. duhh
oh wells. i still have my babyboy and
the retards from RUTHNET wahaha
so looking forward to our slumber party
on thursday !! woots !

damn im suck a slacker,
my o's re barely a mth away and im still
partying. tsktsk
someone pls get me out slackerland !!

tmrws the one mth. ilu baby !

2004-09-28T15:13:00.000+08:00

yay ! i can finally blog ((:
yesyes , im not dead
comps being a fuckturd -grumbles

at cliffys cribb now. chilling
am loving my babyboy so much -beams
ooh and prelims re over !
screwed most of the papers
bt who cares. rahh

guess i w0nt be going to sch anymore
hehs. im gonna fucking dye my hair yo !
u guys re so fucking jealous i know. nehs

alrytes. going to town now x)
and this poor lil blog of mine will be left
rotting again. boohooooos

you make me feel ohsobeautiful ..

ltrs all !

2004-09-09T10:22:00.000+08:00

lol my slippers flew off and broke
when i was running in the rain yest
and got my feet scratching against the gravel
boohoooos
my toesies hurt like hell
its one huge swollen piece of rotten meat nw
-cries

almst went to town with sis and angie barefooted
bt this kind soul lend me his oversized slippers ahah
walked like an idiot the whole day garrgh x)

then met him for marche and garfield

i want nothing more than being in ur arms
ilu, sugar baby (:

-

gracee_
where re u frm anws ?

llama_
linked >:)

moo_
and wheres urs ?! hehes

ame_
thnx. nahh u re still as pretty as ever i bet. seriously -grins

carol_
-giggles back (:

star_
lol. hope to see u this fri. happy bdae in advance again !
smashing seventeen starr !

2004-09-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

fucks i have eyebags now.
slpt frm 5 to 8am bt aint tired surprisingly
since im such a pig

went to zouk last night with my sister and friends
for a fashion show, it was pretty glam
bt ayes i think my granny wears nicer clothes doh
music sucks , crowd sucks
no eye candies too , pathetic shit

bt i got dumped , thnx to someone -glares-
so i went to meet him x)

wanted to catch a movie at cine cos i was
OVERDRESSED , bt tickets were sold out dammit
hung out at esplanade and clarke quay for
the rest of night
twas was a beautiful night , ohsolovely -grins

-

sorrys for the trouble yest , for making u so worried bt u were really sweet to rush dwn to pick me up (: damn i had a stunning night seriously , cant wait for more hornaye crappings with ya -tickleshand- hehe ilu <3

2004-09-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

bloody fucks i did badly for eng prelims today
wells f9, you can be my guest
bahhh >:(

watched cinderella story
i cried , TWICE , can u fucking believe it ?
it is jst a teenbopper flick
im not suppose to be THAT emotional
maybe im still stuck in my 13 yr old phase
bt chad michael murray is worth all that

booohoooos i wanna watch 13 going on 30
(heard it sucks bt who cares)
i wanna watch stepford wives
i wanna watch harold and kumar go to white castle
i wanna watch wicker park ( josh hartnett !! <3)
why do ~~nice~~ shows only freaking
come out during the exam periods -flips table-
(winks at nat)

jer_
this is a new account and i only started blogging AGAIN recently, like 2 wks ago ? so yea theres no archives.

grace_
lol i was jst kidding abt paying me ! and im srrys bt i only design layouts for friends of mine.

carol_
i missssssssss youuuuuuuuuu ! like 10 million packets of startburst jellybeans ! love u my poopoo* x)

tia_
i find studying rather gratifying tho LOL

natal_
phwwoooaarrr ! *chants* SHIFU WATALIE IS THE ALMIGHTY!

llama_
errs llama ? hees , i lost ur linkie too. oops

2004-08-31T22:09:00.000+08:00

being depressed isnt the most prodigious thing
tht has ever happened to me;
being brainwashed is better than being depressed;
being depressed may be the most ~~fashi0nable~~ thing to do these days;
i'd rather be a happy geek.

the best tchers day celebration everr.
surprised tht my class's dance was errh ..
AWESOME ! wells, at least better than i had expected
and all the rock bands , man i had my head banging to
its beat yo
-smirks gonna leave this sch satisfied (:

studied at the library with clare for a GRAND 6 hrs x)
do i rock or do i ROCK ahaha.

baby cousin ryans back frm mauritius
hehs theres gonna be some insane cuddling sessions whoa
tralala ltrs'

2004-08-29T11:34:00.000+08:00

woke up as edgy as fuck
bt ayes had a fetch dream tho :)

dreamt tht i was a lesbian
and i was kissing evie frm thirteen
shes smashing hot -licksalloverher-
lol , may have been harboring lesbian
tendencies all along hehs
cool shit anws ahahaha

anyhows hit town with my girls yest
sakaed again, caught bourne supremacy
its rocking shit nice. matt damon !! <3
it was a pissy day tho , bloody bad services frm
shops assistants rahh. they deserve to die
will load photos up ltr on

been thinking of going on a sushi diet ;)
since its healthy yes ?
bt i ll prbly be off it aftr 24 hrs duhh.
like all my other unsuccessful apple diet; uncle toby's diet blah
i think i shld jst stop eating hehs
aneroxia is the new black
bullimia is so passe.

i doubt i ll be going out alr. prelims nxt fri
fucking balls. im gonna flunk for sure
time to dump the stilettos and mini skirts and
put on my specs and kiss my textbks and notes nw dammit hurrah x)

wyn_
urmms shitters i cant remember which email add i put lol. will figure it out tho. ANWS I SAW YOU ON TV TOOO !! ahahahas im so sorry bt u look uber fat =X oops. i almst peed in my pants fwahaha ! tralala bt u re a natural i must say :)

zabby_
linked ya.

gracee_
thnx babe. yea and i will made one if u pay me ;P

anonymous_
i will upload photos. bt they re not for ur cockeyes to see anws.

2004-08-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

wyn_

aye sorry lahh ! i rarely see u online often what :PpP when im online , u re off. when im off, u re on. playing hide and seek uhh. and u know i NEVER post on ur gbook or tagboard so cldnt get hold of u. lol anws , yes pls relink. ooh ooh !! im using a new account so add me to brokens blog so i can post entries. thnx , i miss you !

anonymous_

who re u. im in sgp btw (:

2004-08-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

okay i almst forgotten abt my blogs existence
but yea my reputation precedes me
for having severe short term memory bahh

so im one of the potentials whose
gonna get f9 for amaths aye ?
fuck you bt no way , you stink ;)
blimey.

having pre-prelims depression -bawls-
holy shit , only started on emaths and sci wtf
indolence is gonna be my downfall i swear
im gonna flunk
im gonna say bye to acjc for the 1st 3 mths
im gonna be fucking upset ):

i want to love you so bad

2004-08-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

yoohooo
kyerooos back frm town with alicia the babe
managed to buy a pretty halter frm topshop (:
its got a glitter butterfly* on it <3
bt theres a zillion more clothes waiting
for me to be their owner , heh

urgh will the sky pls pls pls
rain some money ,
wont tht be fucking wonderful ?
so hopelessly desperate for cash here

...

laters.

2004-08-21T11:24:00.000+08:00

oh wells,
im finally back again
wonder how long is my stamina gonna last me
this time round

anyways,
lifes been balls of love and smiles (:
love is in the air -grins

make me thrill as only you know how